MIA

Yes, that's me... I have been missing in action go figure as today I am officially one week away from my first goal of being below 250 for my birthday. Let's just say I have had a rough couple of weeks have been lazy and my goal seems almost out of reach. On the bright side of things I weighed in at 256.4 this morning and I am on my period - where I usually weigh 3-4 pounds heavier - so I am hoping that estimate is right and that I have only about 3 pounds to lose between now and next Wednesday, fingers crossed.
I have been feeling better and pay A LOT more attention to when I am full so I have not been eating as big of portion sizes which also means I most definitely have not been going back for seconds and that is gratifying in itself. I remember from when I was in college that was how my weight loss started; I didn't eat as much. Sounds like simple math doesn't it :)
Aside from that, I don't really have too much to say but I did see this on a person's sparkpage while I was browsing around and I loved it so I will leave on this note:

Motivation for Weight Loss
M-make short term goals
O-out with the negative thoughts
T-think of why you want it
I-imagine how you will feel
V-visualize the future you
A-acknowledge your successes
T-treat yourself with respect
I-investigate new ideas and foods
O-observe your healthy lifestyle
N-never give up and never give in
S- support one another

Almost to the first FIVE...

I couldn't help myself and I weighed in this morning... 255.2! Woohoo; so in less than two weeks I have lost almost four pounds so I am hoping that by next Wednesday, my official weigh-in day, that I will have lost five pounds or more! I am totally pumped and it makes me happy :) The bloat is so much less my belly is adjusting to better eating and I just feel proud of myself... like losing it this last week and a half and doing it consciously has been better motivation for me than I have had in a long time. And then, with Biggest Loser starting up this Tuesday and having my keys to the clinic to work out in the gym, I am in a no lose situation- the only way I can fail is if I let myself... and I can't and won't do that!
I had my doctor's appointment and I was talking to my nurse practitioner- who I have been seeing since I started going to the gynocologist- and was telling her that I wanted to lose a good amount of weight before getting pregnant again and I was talking to her about it and it just made the endeavor seem more real. I told her I was hoping to be around 180 or 190 for the next pregnancy and she said that's a goal but even a 10% loss is a big step... that's 26 pounds which would put me around 235 which is about what I weighed in at when I found out I was preggars with the monster. I would love to be 235 right now but next spring, I want to at least be in Onederland, for sure. And I can't think entirely about that goal right now because that's a total of 60 pounds to lose just to get to that point and I am much more content with be happy over a 4 pound loss!
If I do the math, and I continue to lose two pounds a week and I have 14 weeks from here til our Holiday Party, that would put at 227- my word! I couldn't imagine being that weight right now but it would be a lot of fun and more than 30 pounds lighter! I get excited just thinking about it which must be the reason I have only been able to eat one serving at most and why I had some watermelon for snack tonight and not ice cream like I had originally thought would be a good idea. *sigh* It will not be the easiest road, that's for sure but I am already on it and headed in the right direction so who am I to complain!!!

I. Have. Survived.

So, overall I think I have done pretty well the last week or so- even over the holiday weekend. I can especially tell because my portion sizes are getting smaller and I am getting fuller faster. This morning I weighed in- no, it is not Wednesday but I was nervous because my period is starting- and I was 257… down .6 from the last time I weighed in and down 2.2 pounds from last Wednesday, which, in my book is awesome considering it is that time of the month. I have had hardly any chocolate and I am okay with that. Last Thursday there was cake in the kitchen at work and I turned down a piece; today I was offered a chocolate chip cookie and I turned it down!!! AND I SURVIVED!!! J I am not eating seconds and I am surviving… I am not eating lots of bad things and I am surviving. YAY! And I can totally tell in my body; the bloat in my belly is diminishing and I am slowly feeling my energy coming back- s.l.o.w.l.y.
I have my annual gyno appointment today and I know I will weigh more than I did the last time I was there which was six weeks after giving birth to the monster but I am looking forward to the next time they weigh me being at least around 180 (this is if everything sticks to plan and I end up getting pregnant next spring). Ideally I would love to be around 160 then but given that I only have about 8 months or so- that is quite a short amount of time to lose 100 pounds! On the plus side, I also received my keys to the clinic closest to my home today and I am excited and hope to start coming here to work out at least a couple of times a week in the evening…. That’s my plan! So, it can’t hurt the weight loss, right?
Anyway, I am surviving, have started the losing process (again) and am feeling good about where I am at and stronger with every temptation I turn down!

Loss!!!!

Happy belated Valentine's Day!!! I didn't have a chance to get on the computer yesterday but I did spend the day pretty lazy and not doing too much, although I did make sure I drank my water. Anyhoo, I weighed in at 251!!! Woohoo. So that makes a four pound loss... now, hopefully I can go below that and maybe next week's weigh-in will be under 250... finally. I have doing pretty good with working out and have been proud of myself about it. I will probably check back in later today as I can't think of too much to say right now.

Weigh-in... Ideas Wanted!!!

Um, so I weighed in this morning at 254... but I am not sad. Like I said before, I know my body and when it is that time of the month I am easily four pounds heavier, so, in my book, when my period is over, I should be weighing in around 250 or less... so bring on next week!!! I ain't scerrred!!!! I will keep on working out- doing something- everyday and really concentrate on my eating.
I am feeling really good, along with the energy is just the way I feel- I am proud of myself for working out and making that effort; I can feel the changes in my body and I am confident that this time will be THE time. I would be too disappointed in myself to fail...

And moving on, I need ideas for breakfast, preferably low carb breakfasts- although my problem is more portion size than anything. I am at a complete loss but I know I need to start my day off better... ugh. So, any suggestions would be great since I don't think I can make myself egg and ham and cheese omelets all of the time!!!

I feel good and I am going to do this... I am either going to be in the low 200s or 190s (gawd, could you imagine?) by the wedding!!! Yee haw!