HUMP day

I weighed in this morning, 256, which sucks but I am responsible for my losses and gains and I know I haven't been concentrating. It is so bad that I get so motivated and then after a week at most, I get lazy... and then I get really lazy and I don't care, which means things get worse. Blegh.
I had to stop in the grocery store on my way home today to buy some sour cream for the tacos we were having for dinner; well I also wanted something salty and decided on potato chips- bad decision #1; they only had the big bags, which I got- bad decision #2; I ate and ate in the car on my way to pick up the monster- bad decision #3. Now I just feel like barfing not only because my stomach feels gross but also because I feel like it would make up for the fact that I ate it in the first place- I guess you would call that purge. Oh well, I only ate two small tacos which I guess is a good thing (even though I still feel like throwing up).
By the way, PastaQueen- my most favorite weight loss blog- has a wonderful post today on her blog... totally touched me.

It's Friday - Thank God!

So this will probably be a quick note as I don't have too much to report and I have other things to do *sigh*
I feel like I have been doing really well; I haven't had the bloat I am used to so my belly has slimmed down some. I weighed in on Wednesday at work because we started the new Biggest Loser Competition- Holiday Party and I had lost a full five pounds which was really exciting for me. I am hoping to see a loss again this coming week. I didn't get a chance to work out this week like I was hoping but have full intentions to start this coming week so I am looking forward to that as I don't think it can hurt. I know that losing five pounds in one week is not typical (I feel like a tag line in some dieting commercial) but it gets me motivated to lose more and actually think I could possibly be at least thirty pounds lighter by my company's holiday party! Which makes me happy and has me already looking online for a cute dress to wear (and that is so not like me).
Tomorrow the hubby and I are going to Hersheypark which I am really looking forward to. I love riding the rides and stuff and it will be great exercise walking all over the park so that's a plus too. I will probably weigh in on Monday to check in and then Wednesdays are what count in my world so I am hoping for a two pound loss... we will see what happens!!!

Monday Morning. 'Nuff Said.

I am trying to think about what I ate yesterday; I was so proud of myself for not getting a Milky Way when I was grocery shopping and then I ended up at the pharmacy and grocery store again that evening- tempted again. I always get myself something when I go to CVS but walked right down the candy aisle and NOTHING. Then at the grocery store, the Halloween candy is in full effect and I was so tempted to get a Kit Kat (or two, bad, I know). But I went to the deli to get what I needed and that was all she wrote- no more, no less. I had tomato soup and grilled ham and cheese sandwiches for dinner last night. I also had ice cream for dessert last night but it was Breyers Light Mint Chocolate Chip with some Hershey's chocolate syrup on top... it totally hit the spot and I didn't crave anything else.
I was also proud of myself- on Saturday morning I was craving (!!!) something to eat and didn't know what and I ended up having watermelon- yup, just watermelon :) So, all in all, I am making healthier conscious decisions- in my opinion- and paying more attention to when I am full...

How cute is this quote:
The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph! ~Marvin Phillips

Quick

So I weighed in yesterday morning... I don't know why, but I just couldn't wait :) 254.2!!!! I was totally pumped; we even went hiking yesterday for an hour- in the 90 degree heat- and it made me feel even better. I had hot wings last night for dinner but I was okay with that because I didn't get all crazy with everything else- if that makes sense. My mind is right and I can tell because when I was at the grocery store today and considered getting a Milky Way candy bar as a snack for the ride home, I changed my mind and didn't consider it after that. And it felt good to turn it down, leave it in the store and I. Survived.
This week I am hoping to start working out and concentrating even more on good eating choices so yippee skippee and we are on our way!

Almost to the first FIVE...

I couldn't help myself and I weighed in this morning... 255.2! Woohoo; so in less than two weeks I have lost almost four pounds so I am hoping that by next Wednesday, my official weigh-in day, that I will have lost five pounds or more! I am totally pumped and it makes me happy :) The bloat is so much less my belly is adjusting to better eating and I just feel proud of myself... like losing it this last week and a half and doing it consciously has been better motivation for me than I have had in a long time. And then, with Biggest Loser starting up this Tuesday and having my keys to the clinic to work out in the gym, I am in a no lose situation- the only way I can fail is if I let myself... and I can't and won't do that!
I had my doctor's appointment and I was talking to my nurse practitioner- who I have been seeing since I started going to the gynocologist- and was telling her that I wanted to lose a good amount of weight before getting pregnant again and I was talking to her about it and it just made the endeavor seem more real. I told her I was hoping to be around 180 or 190 for the next pregnancy and she said that's a goal but even a 10% loss is a big step... that's 26 pounds which would put me around 235 which is about what I weighed in at when I found out I was preggars with the monster. I would love to be 235 right now but next spring, I want to at least be in Onederland, for sure. And I can't think entirely about that goal right now because that's a total of 60 pounds to lose just to get to that point and I am much more content with be happy over a 4 pound loss!
If I do the math, and I continue to lose two pounds a week and I have 14 weeks from here til our Holiday Party, that would put at 227- my word! I couldn't imagine being that weight right now but it would be a lot of fun and more than 30 pounds lighter! I get excited just thinking about it which must be the reason I have only been able to eat one serving at most and why I had some watermelon for snack tonight and not ice cream like I had originally thought would be a good idea. *sigh* It will not be the easiest road, that's for sure but I am already on it and headed in the right direction so who am I to complain!!!

I. Have. Survived.

So, overall I think I have done pretty well the last week or so- even over the holiday weekend. I can especially tell because my portion sizes are getting smaller and I am getting fuller faster. This morning I weighed in- no, it is not Wednesday but I was nervous because my period is starting- and I was 257… down .6 from the last time I weighed in and down 2.2 pounds from last Wednesday, which, in my book is awesome considering it is that time of the month. I have had hardly any chocolate and I am okay with that. Last Thursday there was cake in the kitchen at work and I turned down a piece; today I was offered a chocolate chip cookie and I turned it down!!! AND I SURVIVED!!! J I am not eating seconds and I am surviving… I am not eating lots of bad things and I am surviving. YAY! And I can totally tell in my body; the bloat in my belly is diminishing and I am slowly feeling my energy coming back- s.l.o.w.l.y.
I have my annual gyno appointment today and I know I will weigh more than I did the last time I was there which was six weeks after giving birth to the monster but I am looking forward to the next time they weigh me being at least around 180 (this is if everything sticks to plan and I end up getting pregnant next spring). Ideally I would love to be around 160 then but given that I only have about 8 months or so- that is quite a short amount of time to lose 100 pounds! On the plus side, I also received my keys to the clinic closest to my home today and I am excited and hope to start coming here to work out at least a couple of times a week in the evening…. That’s my plan! So, it can’t hurt the weight loss, right?
Anyway, I am surviving, have started the losing process (again) and am feeling good about where I am at and stronger with every temptation I turn down!