It's Friday - Thank God!

So this will probably be a quick note as I don't have too much to report and I have other things to do *sigh*
I feel like I have been doing really well; I haven't had the bloat I am used to so my belly has slimmed down some. I weighed in on Wednesday at work because we started the new Biggest Loser Competition- Holiday Party and I had lost a full five pounds which was really exciting for me. I am hoping to see a loss again this coming week. I didn't get a chance to work out this week like I was hoping but have full intentions to start this coming week so I am looking forward to that as I don't think it can hurt. I know that losing five pounds in one week is not typical (I feel like a tag line in some dieting commercial) but it gets me motivated to lose more and actually think I could possibly be at least thirty pounds lighter by my company's holiday party! Which makes me happy and has me already looking online for a cute dress to wear (and that is so not like me).
Tomorrow the hubby and I are going to Hersheypark which I am really looking forward to. I love riding the rides and stuff and it will be great exercise walking all over the park so that's a plus too. I will probably weigh in on Monday to check in and then Wednesdays are what count in my world so I am hoping for a two pound loss... we will see what happens!!!

Almost to the first FIVE...

I couldn't help myself and I weighed in this morning... 255.2! Woohoo; so in less than two weeks I have lost almost four pounds so I am hoping that by next Wednesday, my official weigh-in day, that I will have lost five pounds or more! I am totally pumped and it makes me happy :) The bloat is so much less my belly is adjusting to better eating and I just feel proud of myself... like losing it this last week and a half and doing it consciously has been better motivation for me than I have had in a long time. And then, with Biggest Loser starting up this Tuesday and having my keys to the clinic to work out in the gym, I am in a no lose situation- the only way I can fail is if I let myself... and I can't and won't do that!
I had my doctor's appointment and I was talking to my nurse practitioner- who I have been seeing since I started going to the gynocologist- and was telling her that I wanted to lose a good amount of weight before getting pregnant again and I was talking to her about it and it just made the endeavor seem more real. I told her I was hoping to be around 180 or 190 for the next pregnancy and she said that's a goal but even a 10% loss is a big step... that's 26 pounds which would put me around 235 which is about what I weighed in at when I found out I was preggars with the monster. I would love to be 235 right now but next spring, I want to at least be in Onederland, for sure. And I can't think entirely about that goal right now because that's a total of 60 pounds to lose just to get to that point and I am much more content with be happy over a 4 pound loss!
If I do the math, and I continue to lose two pounds a week and I have 14 weeks from here til our Holiday Party, that would put at 227- my word! I couldn't imagine being that weight right now but it would be a lot of fun and more than 30 pounds lighter! I get excited just thinking about it which must be the reason I have only been able to eat one serving at most and why I had some watermelon for snack tonight and not ice cream like I had originally thought would be a good idea. *sigh* It will not be the easiest road, that's for sure but I am already on it and headed in the right direction so who am I to complain!!!

Starting Over... Again.

I feeled compelled to write this right now, this morning... even though I know I have to get out of here sooner than later, I still have the little monster to get ready and then drop off at the sitter's and I am heading south. But here I am. I am starting over (again) this morning. I plan on tracking the food I eat and watching my portion sizes like a hawk. The lower card I can be the better, I think, but that doesn't necessarily mean I am cutting out all carbs or even necessarily doing it cold turkey- I am shooting for being carb smart. If that makes sense. I have been reading success stories online (one of my fave pasttimes) and seeing the before and after pictures... I want my own before and after picture. Our holiday party is December 14th and I would like to lose anywhere between 30 and 40 pounds by then which gives me a little over 3 and a half months. I feel committed this morning- like losing the weight will make me different... I want the energy that a lighter, more in shape and healthier body can give me- I am tired of feeling like a slug. I want to be able to run around with my baby and actually look forward to hikes with my husband. And honestly, I am so tired of seeing my big old belly pooching out it is making me sick. (I will get more into how this fat body is making me feel in a different post). Anyway, I have set my first big goal to have at least 30 pounds gone by December 14th; this morning I weighed in and am 259.2 - ugh. My first mini goal will be my birthday- October 10th- and I would like to have lost 10-15 pounds... which will put me under 250 :)
And yes, now I have to go get the monster ready to go... yippee skippee it is Monday... blegh.

Bridesmaid dress

Umm, so I picked up mine and my sister's bridesmaids dresses Saturday night; she stopped by yesterday in order to pick her's up and she tried it on...

***NOTE: If you recall, she and I both got dresses a couple of sizes smaller than what actually fit as motivation...

Her's 'fit' at least... as did mine to an extent. The worst fitting area on the dress was the bust area- OH MY! I mean, it was like there was no place for my humungous boobs to go... so that is definitely going to be a challenge. BUT, it is not just losing the weight from my chest, so to speak, it's also those pockets under my arms, like where the band of bra goes, it is my back, which is fat and has those awful back rolls, and it also that fat right under my shoulders but not my under arms... ahh, not sure if that last one made sense or not but anyone who has carried weight around probably knows what I am talking about, that roll of flab that if you're wearing anything with straps seems to pop out on the side when your arms are at your sides. I am hoping that the weight training I have been doing will help to combat some of this...

I am also enjoying SparkPeople a lot more... really getting into it and there is so much fun information on there plus I am proud of myself for sticking with my workouts and calorie tracking- although I do have to get more precise with that- and then reading the articles and such. I will admit, I love working out just so I can go onto SP to log my workout and get my points, the same with drinking water... I have drank at least eight glasses of water a day!!!

Thoughts

I weighed in this morning, I am not considering it an official weigh in or anything but I weighed in at 252, nonetheless... that's 3 pounds lower. I wonder what it will look like come Wednesday...

I also was messing around earlier because I am home all day and so I put in my weightloss goals on the sidebar. I realize my first goal is to be 240 by the end of this month, a bit enthusiastic to say the least and I know it is not the most realistic goal- I mean, seriously, it would at least 12 pouns in 18 days- but the number fit in nicely on my timeline so I left it there. As each goal is reached, and they will be, I will write in the date that I accomplished them (a la so many other weight losing bloggers, but like I said, I actually took the time to do it today).

I have a lot of things on my mind right now having not so much to do with weight loss, okay well one thing does but moreso on our finances. I am praying that I have a job within the next couple of weeks so I can finally get a handle on our bills... it is killing me. I wish I had the right contacts to get some kind of job where someone would be willing to pay me under the table... or that I had the smarts to go work some temporary job for the last month just to have that extra moola.. hindsight being 20/20 and all that.

Aside from that, I am getting more acquainted with SparkPeople which is a lot of fun; I also had to clean the basement- darn puppy- and am hoping to get down there some time today in order to get some time in on the Gazelle...