One Pound Down

so weigh in was yesterday and I didn't have the chance to make an entry because, go figure, I have been busy running around here at work. Yes!!! Tomorrow is my last day coming into work and I am really looking forward to it, I am not going to lie. I will miss some of the folks here but I won't miss the company, won't miss the politics, won't miss the people that act like they're still in high school and I- most important- will not miss the 50-mile one-way commute!!!! For sure!!! now, back to the weigh-in... I had a one pound loss which isn't too shabby... but I will admit, with this being my last week let me see: they had a luncheon for me on Monday and I also had a delicious dessert, on Tuesday they had cake for me in the one plant, on Wednesday I brought chocolate frosted donuts in which was great and then also had half a hoagie for lunch, today was the holiday luncheon in the other plant and then cake in this plant and then tomorrow my boss is coming up to take me out to lunch... OMG! Now I haven't really been eating anything at home so hopefully my body will find some balanced in there but I doubt it... we shall see!

I have decided I am fighting a losing battle until the holidays are over- I just have no control over myself and it feels like I am still in the process of getting my mind right... but I do not intend to go hog wild or anything... blegh.

Last night was also the Biggest Loser... those people are amazing! Poppy, one of the at home contestants and the winner for biggest loser at home, looked incredible... she had lost so much weight and she did it on her own!!! I want to be like her... and the amount of time these people lost the weight is also out of this world... whew! That's gonna be Tiff in a few months... bring it on 2007!!!

Two. Fifty. Damn. Four.

WHAT. IS. WRONG. WITH. ME. Ugh. Like I said, my weight has been fluctuating like a son of a bitch... pardon my french. I am so aggravated right now it is not even funny... I feel totally stuck. I have never had this much trouble losing weight... losing lots of weight, yes. But 5 or 10 pounds has always been pretty simple-- what has this baby done to my body??? Granted, chocolate is not helping matters but all the same, I have always eaten chocolate and I have lost weight when I tried. Maybe I am just not trying hard enough... hmm. I do know that my body is not moving like it used to, and by that I mean that I used to at least get in some more activity, even if it was just running up and down and all over while I was at work- I am hardly even doing that anymore. I am completely blaming myself which also means when I get mad or down and out about this situation I am getting mad at myself- again, it's obviously not helping things.

Moving on... Biggest Loser is on tonight and I think the finale could possibly be on next week so I am looking forward to it... I will admit this season hasn't been nearly as motivational as some of the others but I still sit there and when they say I have lost 62 pounds (LOL not sure why that number has stuck in my head) I then ask myself where would I be if I lost 62 pounds??? It's always fun to imagine... 62 pounds, I would be in Onderland...

Oh well- here's to HUMP day!!!

30 degrees outside...

Brrr! but I love the cold weather and it is that time of the year so I say bring it on... of course, I can't believe it was 74 degrees when I was driving home from work on Friday... ack.

Anyhoo- I am totally stressing which is definitely not good for my health. I am trying to curb my wanting to eat everything salty and/or sugary I can find... I was going to buy chocolate frosted donuts out of the vending maching this morning to have with some coffee- I know, shame on me, but the machine was out so I waited a little while longer and then I ate my yogurt... I have the munchies so right now I am chomping on some chewing gum. ugh. This sucks- I am totally going through withdrawl or something. This sucks seriously... but I think I have to get the chocolate cravings and others out of my system.

I weighed myself a few times this weekend and my weight flucuates like crazy!!! Saturday morning I weighed myself and had lost like 3.5 pounds and this morning, not so much... I guess it will be a surprise what Wednesday morning brings!!! I just want to see 245... is that too much to ask? And then I can go from there... maybe if things go well I will be there by the end of the year and then can work on getting out of the two hundreds as one, among others, of things I NEED to do for the new year!!!

Is that a light at the end of the tunnel?

Or is it a train??? Tee hee. That's along the lines of what my mom said to me when I was telling her what I would do if I had a job by the beginning of January- meaning I would be able to take advantage of my package and double dip for a couple of months... she said hopefully it was the light at the end of the tunnel and not a train!!! My point: I interviewed for a job yesterday!!! The interview went really well in my opinion; I interviewed with the person who would be my boss and also with the recruiter and they both were great... and I am feeling really optimistic about the job. And the two best parts: 1) I already really like the few people I met in the office, like I was comfortable there... something I never completely felt in my current position and 2) it took me a half hour to get home!!! Compare that with one way commutes of over an hour... amen!!! So keep your fingers crossed and prayers going up and hopefully I will have me a job in January =-)

Now, because of me feeling so good about my interview I am feeling more relaxed and not so munchy hungry... that and this month should be my last hell month (wishing & hoping) so I am not feeling the need for chocolate and other snacks... nor am I eating as much, at least it doesn't feel that way. So that just seals the deal on my being a stress eater... less stress, better eating... I don't know if any of this makes sense but I do feel good!!!