Official Weight (yikes)

Aaagghhh... so I had my 6 weeks postpartum checkup yesterday. The nurse was nice enough to ask if I wanted to be weighed or not- I had a choice!?!?!- and I actually told her yes. Well, turns out that I have lost 30 pounds since having the baby... don't we all wish we could drop 30 pounds in six weeks??? So, that's the good news; bad news: I still have about 15 pounds to go to get to my "pre-pregnancy" weight, which is how the doctor's office referred to it- I refer to it as post-honeymoon weight. Anyhoo, I am weighing in at a whopping 253 pounds officially at the doctor's office. This means I have a lot of work ahead of me and I will be honest, I think that not only is it daunting but also downright scary. I am going to work at it though and my regular annual appointment is supposed to be in January so I will use that as my timeframe to get me to another official weigh-in. Now, the hard part is trying to figure out what my goal weight should be for five months from now; I am hoping to lose another 10 pounds before I go back to work that first week of October which puts me around 240 and gives me about 4 months, plus I have to figure in the holidays which I know is no excuse to put on weight but I am being realistic. I would love to be at 200 by the end of January but I will make my goal 210! That allows for the holidays and stubborn pregnancy weight and if I get below 210 by the end of January then all the better!!!
It is so scary to actually be on the weight loss train when for 9 months I was watching my weight but expecting to gain weight. And the scariest part is I am almost at my highest weight- the weight I was at when I started college- and the idea of being back there freaks me out and the idea of losing it freaks me out even more. Especially when I keep reminding myself how much trouble I was having trying to lose weight before I found out I was pregnant. The biggest thing I know I need to do is watch some of the things I eat and also get in some exercise... I can't keep making excuses or being lazy.
Sooo, I am going on to sparkpeople (i think that's the name) to get the gist of how I am supposed to be logging in my calories and then my sister also swore by this other fitness site and then I am going to go from there. Hopefully, if I use this blog to hold myself accountable I will be able to stay on track and go from there.
YEEHAW!